Around 6.00 P.M., my journey of sickness to the core started. Had complete nausea and dysentery throughout night. Couldn’t even sip a drop of water. I was dehydrated to the core. Was in tears to see my daughter as unwanted thoughts came in front of me. She hugged me to say “Mama I am there for you” She nursed to give me a feel that I am fine. My mind was deviated a little bit. Husbandman was in complete prayers al hamdulilah. Tried our combinations but couldn’t control. We passed that terrific night and next morning hubby forced me to go to emergency care. While heading towards the emergency unit she looked at me and held my hands tight by pressing me. That feel gave me a thought that She is there for me. While getting down she tried to open the door for me. Maa shaa allah. Im truly blessed to get a good supporting family. The moment I was in urgent care she looked at me and asked her dad to take her out. She would have thought let mama sleep for a while. When I was under initial treatment she took her dad aside and allowed me to rest al hamdulilah. After I woke up I wasn’t able to see me alone started crying thinking about my mom, what would be her plight if she sees me in this condition. Next moment my hubby was inside with our doll al hamdulilah cuddled my baby so tight. Around 11.00 am we were given a shock that I had appendicitis and I am not supposed to carry BabyA hereafter in my life. This was told by the nurse over there. There I broke down and started to think about babyA; how will she manage without me, without nursing as till the moment I was hospitalised we enjoyed the cuddling moments in nursing. Nursing was a boon for us. During the tough times, food strikes, dreamfeeding, what not? Though we started speaking about weaning process we weren’t ready for weaning at all. Nursed her for one last time before I was transported to the ambulance kissed her and left the place. She hasn’t gone alone anywhere apart from me. Thanks to the Carseat as we didn’t want to depend on anyone here to carry her during the travel. Hubby with a heavy heart followed me ofcourse. My sister was broken as she knew about this and was getting ready to come miles apart.But hubby and I didn’t want them to travel right now as babyZ had a big movement and he has the right to take rest. My friends rushed in and my daughter gave them surprise by staying calm till my surgery was over. With almighty’s Grace everything went fine and my daughter understood the condition and managed well. Since we follow child- led parenting i was relaxed as she eats on her own with no tension
When people criticized about my child -led parenting; I trusted my concept and followed it. Today we have proved that we are not doing anything wrong in life.
Babywearing has made us to be strong bold and confident individual. All mocked for nursing my doll till now [650 days] but I am proud that she weaned herself and can understand what she is cable of following this style of parenting.